Wednesday, July 14, 2010

my life is a miley cyrus song

I live in two worlds.

To my co-workers, I'm very much a goody-goody. I work hard at my job, I get a lot of praise from my boss, and I love my students. I'm not the one vomiting on people's bedroom comforters; I'm not the one gettin' nekked in the hot tub. I don't smoke pot and I don't drink to get drunk. I don't stand in judgement of them (well, ok, the vomit was just plain nasty) but I've just never been able to let loose in those ways.

To the people at Montreat, I feel so opposite. Tonight over ice cream, I was flabbergasted to learn I was the only woman at the table who wore thong underwear. I've been sporting thongs since I was fifteen. My best friend told me to wear them to bed for a month and I'd get used to the feeling of string up your crack. (Please note: I did wear a clean thong each night.) But these women don't wear them at all! Then one of their husbands jumped in and said they were unattractive anyway. Say what?

If I told them men at work what kind of underwear I had on, they'd be drooling. Literally, they'd drool on my desk and then make a pass at me.

Two big, confusing worlds. I guess I just have to take solace in the fact that I am who I am for a reason. For so long, I cared about fitting in. I cared more about having people like me than I did about liking myself. I don't care about fitting in anymore. But that doesn't make co-existing any easier.

wg

7 comments:

Amanda said...

Not attractive? What? Was he looking at himself in a thong?

Laurie said...

Well - THIS co-worker doesn't think you are a goody goody. (Maybe, though, that's because I don't do those things either, and would prefer to think that I am not a goody goody either.) You are right though - I often think I live in several vastly different worlds. I kinda like to think I have embraced my inner nerd, and it's all good as long as we like ourselves. :)

wiki-san said...

I have to learn how to be able to learn how to fully accept who I am and not really worry too much about fitting in. Like you mentioned "I am who I am for a reason." I tend to care more sometimes about fitting in and having people like me rather than truly liking/loving myself for just being me.

I too wear thongs, and for me, they are 10x more comfortable then wearing anything else. (Most likely because I've become so used to them, that if I attempt to wear anything else for any lengthy period of time ... It just feels strange).

Tom said...

Ok, two things. First, you need to check the "man card" of the husband because that is BS. Second, I probably shouldn't read your blog the week before I see you. We won't have anything to talk about...like underwear preferances. ;)

The Working Girl said...

LOL Tom. Let's be sure to bring that up at lunch in front of people who don't know the back story.

thetomboyeffect said...

If it makes you feel any better plenty of women here in seminary are sporting thongs. I know because we have discussions about these things and sex in general on a pretty regular basis. Montreat needs to get with the program.

The Working Girl said...

I think thongs are just a matter of taste to some people. I was just caught off guard that I was the only one who wore them.